Have you ever felt this way? Like you are completely overwhelmed and out of control.
This last week, out of nowhere I’ve started to feel like I’m completely lost. And last night I broke down in a part laughing, part crying fit for absolutely no reason.
Wedding season is in mid-swing and things have been going brilliantly. But somehow I feel like I’m also completely stuck. I have a million thoughts racing around in my head. And they never rest.
And what makes this even more difficult is the feeling that I’m not in control of my own life. I work a full time job alongside my photography business, and while I am extremely grateful for the stable income which allows be to build up my own business without having to worry about finances, it does take up so much of my time. Not knowing from one week to the next which days or shifts I will be working brings a lot of uncertainty, and for someone like me who likes to be in control and plan everything in advance, it really hinders me being able to focus.
I’ve started getting up earlier so that I can get more work done on my business before I have to leave for the day job, but there are days when I just feel exhausted. But it’s a viscous cycle. If I take time off for myself, I can’t relax, because all I do is think about what I should be doing instead. And when I start working again, I’m overwhelmed by the tasks that I have to do, that I am not nearly as productive as I need to be.
Some days (and nights) I wish I could just make my thoughts turn off, completely relax and just enjoy doing nothing, without the feeling like I need to be doing something all of the time.
I’d love to know how you deal with things when you are feeling tired and overwhelmed? How do you turn things around and get your motivation back?